soooo in church on sunday, pastor britt talked about where we put our identity and our joy and it really got me to thinkin (as pastor britt often does) and i have always had a preetty hard time with identity and finding it solely in jesus christ and nothing or no one else. but something he said was like a oh-yeah-that-makes-perfect-sense moment. he said that if you put your identity and your joy in money or people or things or relationships then when hard times hit, you will experience loss in a big way. but if your identity and joy is in jesus then when sorrow and pain comes, you will be driven closer to the source of your identity and joy. and that just makes sense you know. and so i have been thinkin of things that have been my identity in the past, other than the God of the universe: my family, money, zach, cute clothes, attention, music. and thats WEIRD. because allll of those things will eventually fail me in one way or another. so why not make it something thats eternal and that will love me and protect me and pick me up constantly?
but. as most things are, this is a lot easier said than done. but its what i'm working on and learning right now. and its hard. and i feel like a failure. but its happening. and i'm thankful for this hard stinky lesson i'm learning.
ching im really so proud of you! really. and you are NOTTTT a failure at all.
ReplyDeletei mean it when i say that i recently see sooo much change and growth and maturing in you. you are really becoming a strong woman in the Lord. Its great because you can grow up, but still be your joyful silly self. I also notice that you are a lot more open lately. its cool because God has done alll of those things in you. you didnt do any of them. and "he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion." I really couldn't be more proud of you. keep asking Jesus to continue this work and I know he will grow you even morrrreeeee!!!
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